Sleep deprived week

Since last fri ive had an avg of only 3 hrs seriously of sleep!!! This morning was the best 2 hrs.. Busy sorting out stuff to pack haha only for 4 days trip.. Currently I have no plans or mission during this bkk trip except to relax, watch the ASU Jr Champ.. Tryin not to spend but that doesnt mean I can't purchase anything :p hopefully will try recover back the several days lack of sleep on this trip.. :)

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Caught in the act

what would you do if you caught your partner being unfaithful to you (but then again to some people their definition of "cheating" may vary) ?
For me personally, i would probably say if my partner was seeing someone else that had strong feelings for him & he had strong feelings for her and they had physical contact with one another and from then on thats CHEATING...If they met casually then i will get jealous but i dont think it's cheating coz he still was thinking of me the whole time around and loves me too...
However if i did catch him, i would probably pretend for awhile til i cant stand the pain of knowing the truth & pray that he will be man enough to admit it rather than i confront him... or confront him after the pain becomes unbearably and lash it alllll out...(btw this post has nothing to do with my relationship =p but a friend of mine who is on the verge of gettin busted soon perhaps...)

Love is in the air...

Hmm or so i think.. =) i still do feel that the L word has been a pretty commercialized word and movies have potrayed a happily ever after.. well let's see if this princess gets her happy ending.. (prince charming waht say you...) anyway feelings have been let out to the mother ( hehe it had to be done thru gmail chat haha as i've been teaching till late at night and didnt want to wait long.. and yes for some reason the eyes did start to water) so mama knows how i feel for him, how we are serious & how i'm planning to celebr8 xmas, new year & his birthday with him.. now issues start to rise as she feels its not right for me to go on my own & stay with him & his FAMILY & be with him alone.... (mind you i'm 25 & she says that can happen once im married...) she said she has thought of going sometime next year as well with papa to go visit his family...( exciting but let's see knowing them.. unpredictable) i dont see & i pointed this out as well to her how me going to find happiness is wrong and spoiling reputation of the family... ( eh... and of coz if the boys went away to see their other half it would not have been an issue coz they are BOYS...) hmm ...
Anyhow... they both like him, but they just want to make sure that i feel special for him for the right reason's...i feel i'm slowly having faith in him & he won't disappoint me... so it's time to slowly find my way back into ....... love ....... i guess coz i want it to work and i'm afraid to take any risk of loosing it and making sure things work out perfect for both... they're also concern of the lifestyle i lead- pretty much surrounded by luxury and if i will be able to get the same spoiltness i have now... which will be hard for me to let go as this is me & it makes me happy as well as i feel i deserve the finest and best things in life.. thats why i have a wonderful family that i wont trade anything for... but i'm sure things will be wonderfull and i will get my happily ever after which just doesnt end that way in fairytales...
* i am soo tempted to just click my details in and submit my plane ticket................. for Dec...
- btw we going to watch Mamma Mia yippie yeaa finally i managed to buy the tickets last night after a long wait in the line and all the confusion so 28th Dec i shall be singing away in Istana Budaya...
~YOu are the DAncing Queen.. young and sweet only 17 .... Dancing Queen feel the beat from the tamborine oh yeaaa....~ haha as i write this blog , the song is being played on my playlist too as we watched the movie over the weekend with mama papa hahah had a fun time & i bought the soundtrack.. i'm in the ABBA Fever.... even my sms ringtone hahahhahaha... till then cheerios..
lets see my updates on my trip =(

Throughout the years...

I actually did this on Sept 9th 2005 in one of my many unknown blogs that i created and stumbled upon ironically today..its like asking me to review myself for the past 3 yrs =p so pretty excited to find out,some asnwers may have a link to each other & the previous blog.. =p

10 YEARS AGO (1998) I:
1. Took my PMR examination & did pretty well [my bahasa malaysia was a B or C than itself,so dont blame me if my malay language was bad]
2. I started ice skating taking lessons with Brian Chan coach from HK at Sunway Pyramid Ice, Malaysia with Ween (he pulled out of figure & into icehockey) when the rink first opened..
3. Went to Florida, i think Vegas & another place in US & maybe Vancouver (but somewhere in Canada) for holidays in DEcember

FIVE YEARS AGO (2003) I:
1. Started Majoring in my 2nd yr Degree BBUS with double Major- International Tourism & Marketing
2. Had a HEAVEN & HELL relationship that i felt was LOVE & Also found my darling true friend ANAMIKA
3. Had an amazing month of JULY..Trip to LANGKAWI,was my early birthday gift from zain & being with all those that were close to me there[anamika,shoba,nisha,thanvir,sarah, sandra D & all]..celebr8in anamika’s birthday at nuovo was another whack & SWEeT memory..(from previous survey)

THIS IS A WHOLE NEW PART SINCE I WROTE THE PREVIOUS IN 2005!!

TWO YEARS AGO (2006) I:
1. Nanny passed away on August 13th she had breast cancer and it was removed, but she was diagnosed for having too much CO2 in her..( I stilll very much deeply miss her & hardly talk bout it) oh broke up with amir in oct..
2. Joined FEAR FACTOR MALAYSIA-similar to the US version & won RM10k
(used for Twinhead Laptop, Canon DC10 video cam, flight ticket to Melbourne to see Anamika & nis)- read this in another previous blog =p
3. Graduated with my Bachelor of Business in International Tourism & Marketing =)

ONE YEAR AGO (2007 Last Year) I:
1. Was verry lucky to be selected from ISAM representing as a coach for the Korea Dream Program with 3athletes (Charmaine, ELaine, Rachel that i sorta have to look after) - EVERYTHING was paid for FLIGHT,ACCOMODATION (one of Korea's oldest and nicest ski resort Pyeong Chang), FOOD, EQUIPMENT...
The BEST/FUN EVER PROGRAM with all the coaches, DDP, our coaches 'meeting' at night, snowboarding...and .......
2. Met a really nice guy in that trip in Korea from Romania a speed skating coach by the name of Kristo Zoltan- (i LOVE the internet ...SKYPE that brings us close together despite the distance)
3. Zoyli came to KL twice and things became a history from there til now & to come =p
p.s. it was a whole drama.. NOREEN owes him rm4000!! that was supposed to be used for my Xmas gift that i bought already then....
My 1st ever luxury bag that is sooo nice patent black AMANDA handbag from FERRAGAMO...

YESTERDAY (10th Sept 2008) I:
1. Had lesson with Kasih & Leona(finished her Alpha program skating much faster and stronger, hope she does the same on an olympic rink) explained to Chem bout Kasih lesson & Shaz being main coach- as she wants it now...
2. Talked to mom after iftaar & maghrib prayers bout my relationship & wanting to go to europe to see him =)
3. Gave zoyli the sorta good news & planned the trip... hoping it would materialize =D KL-ROME(2days)-MILAN(2days)-BORMIO(2 or 3days)-ROMANIA(and everywhere there 8days)-ROME (flight)- KL

TODAY (11th sept 2008) I:
1.Am wearing baju kedah since it's Ramadhan (11th day) writting this survy in the office & uncertain what else to do besides check facebook,listent to music (NO LESSON TODAY!! but i need $$)
2. Will sms Zoyli to WAKE UP at 12.40 my time as he has training 7.40am his time :)
3. Will have iftaar at 19:15 - its getting earlier and hopefully get an answer from MOM ASAP so i can be all EXCITED / SAD & book my ticket soon.... PRAYYYY.......
Oh must call VC too as talked to her on Skype yesterday saying will call so she can see us at home
p.s. I FOUND MY PASSPORT haha in the bag i went to Krabi- guess as much =p i didnt look properly with my eyes

TOMORROW (12th Sept2008 - FRIDAY) I WILL:
1. Have one miserable lesson(maybe make it an hour) followed by office then back on ice at 4-6.30 then back home for iftaar
2. MAybe book my ticket if MOM gives an answer/ or else persuade her & make her say YES & buy my ticket
3. Call Zoyli on SKYPE =)

THREE SNACKS I ENJOY: ( im fasting now so unsure EVERYTHING)
1. Bin Bin (Japanese rice crackers)
2. Daim chocolate
3. OREO
p.s. i was much healthier 3 yrs back enjoyin granola bars that i've not had for awhile

THREE THINGS I CAN’T LIVE WITHOUT:
1. Internet......SKYPE,MSN,FACEBOOK,BLOGS
2. MUSIC/ iPod TOUCH !!!
3. My ice-Skating boots

THREE THINGS I COULD BUY WITH $1,000: (previously was gifts & ring)
1. Part of my EUROPE TRIP (RM 4100 total for ONLY FLIGHT KL-ROME)
2. Wii (Ween has offered i pay only rm 450 & he chips in the rest, but if he goes & works in KK he takes it with him NOO FAIR) anyway i have to get him a BDAY PRESENT ahh 15th SEPT!
3. Since it's fasting month donate it to IRF Malaysia for the poor kids/family to break fast...

THREE BAD HABITS I HAVE: ( BOLD in 2005)
1. not street smart [i get ripped off easily..damn man]
2. procastinate [should have gone for MTV VJ HUNT..i know u told me SAb sorry]
3. i’m probably lil tooo soft hearted

NOW for 2008 =p same as ALL the above, but a little better
1. Confused/ hate decision making - (mainly on small matters)
2. Afraid to speak up (lack of courage except Lately ;)
3. Torn between 3

THREE THINGS I WOULD NEVER WEAR: ( in 2005 )
1. a men’s underwear
2. dirty clothes
3. jeans [if possible..now i only have 1pair which i just bought last yr..after sooo many years]

NOW in 2008 ( i sorta LOVE Jeans - 5pairs now haha.. but still cant find Skinny jeans i like)
* i still AGREE with number 1 & 2 seem to be trying everything and anything making MY STYLE..
1. Clothes that have too much accessories on them (jeng kinda clothing)
2. YEs... still a men's underwear
3. too much lacy lacy outfit that would make me itch..

THREE (TV) SHOWS I LIKE: (2005)
1. Desperate Housewives 2. Ally McBeal 3.CSI
NOW 2008 (same as the above) =p
1. Gossip Girl ;) 2. Scrubs, Grey's Anatomy, House 3. Ugly Betty hehe =p although i only started watching lately in SEASON 4 i think..

THREE PLACES I’VE LIVED-(2005) recently:(i could give u almost 8 in the last 22years..as parents love buying and selling as investment)
1. Bdr Sungai Long (1996-2000)
2.Bukit Jalil- Vista Komanwel (2000-2002)
3.Bdr Puteri Puchong (2002-still living)
*So will name you ALL more before i moved into Sg . Long
1. Ampang,Bukit Antarabangsa (1991-1996)
2. OUG- granny's place Jalan Hujan Emas (1989-1991)
3. Taman Faber Heights (1986-1989)
4. Tmn Tun- Jalan Haji Openg (1983-1986)

THREE NAMES YOU GO BY:
1. Surayu 2. Ayu 3. D******* (my middle name go figure)
NOW...
1. Princess, Dragam, szivem.. the list goes on here
2. Subaru
3. Sayang

THREE THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. PLeasant2. Kind Hearted3. Cheerful/ Bubbly
NOW (still SAME as as all the above)
1. Confident
2. Caring/ Loving
3. Happy go lucky !!!

THREE THINGS YOU DISLIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. My height [ 5'3"] 2. A lil emotional
3. nothing i guess [not to say i'm perfect, but i can accept wat i am,so no problem]

NOW...SAME as above...
1. Weak / very giving
2. NOt working hard enough
3. LAZY ;)

THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU:
1. Loosing my loved ones & those close & special to me[by death, unfaithfulness,anything]
2. The dark [YES I AM..& i sleep with my nite light on]
3. hei i entered FearFactor, so shudn’t it be like im not scared & I’m FEARLESS[yea rite,hehe but they rephrased it to SCARE not FEAR]
*well....... I experienced no.1 and manage to survive but it is still scary and heart aching

NOW
1. Going BROKE $0
2. Loosing my loved ones
3. THE WORLD IS GOING TO END

THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHT NOW:
1. My glasses2.My good nite, in bed outfit [ i dont need to elaborate]3. My ring [haha..] * UNSURE which ring it was but guessing my mystic knot i bought

NOW
1. Baju kedah - it's ramadan hehe must dress alim (decent)
2. My pre-engagement / 25th Birthday Ruby ring from Bangkok by Zoyli
3. My Tiffany Notes Charm Bracelet for my 25th birthday this year by "ME" =)

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE BANDS/MUSICAL ARTISTS:
2005 1. Van Hunt 2. DEstiny Child 3. Total
2008 (all the above though they no longer exist/ broken up )
1. One Republic 2. LEONA LEWIS :) 3. Timbaland/ PCD

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE SONGS AT PRESENT:
2005 1. Precious-van hunt 2. Destinys Child-Cater 2u 3. Follow Me- Usher [since new year this 2005]
2008
1. Leona Lewis - Better in Time
2. Lion King- Love Will Find A Way & Can you Feel The Love
3. Michael Buble- Everything

THREE NEW THINGS YOU WANT TO TRY IN THE NEXT 12 MONTHS:
1. Find a job 2. Win MAlysia’s 1st National Figure Skating Championship [held in KL end of Nov] 3. ANYTHING!!
*i achieved no.1 =) thats why i'm sitting behind this office desk as a MARKETING DIRECTORT
i was 4th in that national (PRIMARY LEVEL), placed 3rd last year (PRIMARY LEVEL) and 1st THIS year (ADULT GOLD LEVEL)

NOW
1. Spend time with Zoyli and seeing his life in Europe
2. Start saving for my WEDDING =p
3. Learn as much bout my parents company and business / Land 2ANY TWO double jumps (double toe-loop & double loop,) & consistent on my AXEL & DOUBLE SALCHOW

TWO TRUTHS AND A LIE (in no particular order):
1. I’m a final year degree student, a tv host [kids studio1], a candidate for FearFactor Malaysia, an ice-skating instructor, a loving gf, a caring sister, a responsible daughter, a happening aunt to Joshua…..
2. I personally SPEND an average $2000-2500 per month [my own personal money-what on earth do i spend??]
3. i have 13 piercings on my body [from Head to Toe]
*do u really wanna know the lie.... i think number 3 since i counted i have 12 piercings, maybe was hoping to get a tongue then yea 13 ;) but the piercing person said my veins to close and cant do :( and wow i wonder if i do spend that much on average.. i guess less.....

NOW
1. I know what i want in life
2. I'm a millionaire =)
3. I have 3 or 4 guys in my life (from a-z)
*i think i did good for all the above choices*

THREE THINGS YOU JUST CAN’T DO:1. Land a triple jump [for now]
2.have a baby [ i aint married/planning it YET]
3.Hate anyone….[i dont h8 justin timberlake, i just can't stand him]
*well pretty much still can't do all the above though i do feel strongly in doing no,3 with some people !!
NOW
1. Kill someone
2. Unfortunately .. go against my parents saying at this moment
3. Eat right now =p fasting... 4 and a half hours more

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES:
1. ice-skating
2. being with my loved ones
3. shopping, SpenDing, InveSting(things that involve making/ spending $$ =p )

NOW*still all the above !!
1. travelling
2. spending time online skype,blog,msn,facebook
3. Dancing

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO REALLY BADLY RIGHT NOW:
1. be with that special guy that has captured my heART..[ahh]
2. Graduate me degree this NOv[yea.]
3. sleep [it's 3am]
*i didn't do no.1 & i'm no longer with him.. i did eventually have to wait 2months til i graduated.. guessing i slept after i wrote this survey at 3.10am
NOW
1. Be in Europe with Zoyli and wake him up instead of sending him SMS
2. I know i should not say & feel this way but.... I"M HUNGRY maybe coz im bored (i'm fasting too bad)
3. Speak spanish fluently....??

THREE CAREERS YOU’RE CONSIDERING:
1. something in the Tourism industry [so i can travel]
2. entertainment business [big tv host]
3. anythin that i will love doing [i've no idea wat i'm gonna do when i grad in NOV] *i did no. 1 last yr for 2mths with EURO intl travel they DIDNT PAY ME idiots.. Ms. Chrtistie Mercy promised... they are suffering now or soon KARMA...
2. i did for RTM 1 13 episod of fun-nes as a host for kids program got paid,hangout with animals & travel around Malaysia in 2005/06

NOW
1. Running family business
2. Uncertain.... ice skating still..???professional level =p ????
3. HOUSEWIFE haha noo way will i survive if i was at home doing nothing

THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO ON VACATION:
2005 1.Greece 2.BRazil 3. Italy
2008 Still ALL THE ABOVE hopefull Italy in NOV if mom says OK to go see Zoyli
1. Romania
2. Spain
3. Bora bora

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFOREYOU DIE:
1. Be someone extremely successFULL in all aspects of life & a well known figure
2. Go for Haj 3. Be next to my loved ones
NOW... SAME as the above
1. Have a loving ,great,caring,understanding..& list goes on..Husband, Wonderful kids.Happy FAMILY
2. MAke my parents proud of me =)
3. PRay that God will forgive all my sins and give those i leave behind happiness & greatness...

It's courage day for me!! =) Left early for lesson since mom dad to go to ampang so they dropped me home & I left early to Pyramid.. went to 'Popular' book to see several interesting books.. Later went for lesson... Finally managed to speak to Chem regarding 'kasih's lessons'.. Jenny agreed i was sorta being used... Main coach should spend more time with the student and focus on the elements,2nd coach just brush up and takes a look at the program... ( i still dont get the idea of main and second coach probably coz all my other permanent students stick to one,unless they wanna change completely...) So explained that it wont be fair if i spend so much of time on kasih as compared to her main coach & i didnt wanna intefere in her teaching... Truthfully speaking i cant work with her! In the begining she asked if i could take her students incl kasih,enie,zeze.. (alia &aneeta under her still, nerissa- aiza) i said ok with kasih as even b4 sk8 asia ive been havin lessons everyday with her no problem, but the rest i need to check my schedule..NOW she comes & says she wants to do Kasih Solo, i do spotlight..(maybe coz she only has few students going) but still its like you give away something then u want it back-but you want it back also only for a short while.. eh...??? For me it doesn't matter i leave it up to the parents but the parent also don't care so guess its back to the coach.. She text sayin I can do like what she did for Sk8 asia when i did her program she check...(and complaint as well saying my program wasnt nice haha) at the end she sent saying if i wanna do her program i can do all.. (NOT replied to any sms, waste of credit why cant she just be open and talk face to face...) These are the reasons i dont want to have anything to do with her.. =) will settle her later.................

Yeaa, after maghrib prayers and again talking to jenny(she said i HAVE to talk to mom TONIGHT no postpone) so i did verrryy slow & yes it came out........ explained how i wanted to get married on my special dates i picked she giggled... Then i confessed and said i really like him & he really likes me... Then she explained that its all not easy... The distance we live in, the religion (he has to want it for himself & not for me.. which i hope it is........) a lot needs to be learnt there, building a family responsibility, and yes of course Financially.. As parents (which is what i will be one day) it is true they only want THE BEST & it's nice to see someone who can provide that for their child besides the LOVE...so i did convince them that i was happy being wit him & we are saying thats why next yr there wont be many frequent trips... but it is only fair i told her if i go and see him, coz how can i be with someone i've never seen their real life...He has seen my life, my family, what i do and all..I did also say here n there in the conversation that Jenny may come with me & her 'friend'... Our plan go to KL-Rome-Bormio-Bucharest-Rome-KL ... Papa came in so she said to be continued.. but at least she knows how i feel and whats my plans & i wanna go to Europe !!! Now part 2 shall continue soooon.................... (i'm so excited that i hope it works unlike all my other plans, it was ok to scarifice those for THIS)

back again...

Yippie its Ramadan...for some reason i really look forward to Ramadan.. Maybe coz it's a holy month most people do good deeds and Allah is busy at this time trying to answer our prayers.. 1st day of Ramadan is also the 1st of Sept which falls on Monday the 1st day of the week, so it's pretty easy to remember how many days we have left :)

Currently it's the 9 th day, oh i also forgot to mention based on my previous post, i sent my parents an email days after i put my post up here telling them how i felt & it was hard to talk in front of them as i wasnt good with words.. So i carefully explained how i appreciate them caring for me, & how it hurts to see the house no longer bubbly & my plans...Then mom replied saying ok, but stil papa feels we should talk (ok stil on hold for now) and it's fine i go to office and they support my passion for skating and i get to teach from 4pm ;)

So 1st week of fasting gone by & work & coaching all went GREAT.. occupied myseld..Up at 5 for sahur,subuh prayer, sleep, office at 9.30-3.30 then class til 6.30 then stuck in traffic, (it was raining everyday) came home right on time for iftaar =) the HOME is sweet again... prayer with all isya' & terawih..
These past few days traffic has not been heavy probably due to no rain.. yee haaa..takling bout rain, USD= RM3.4 up from RM3.2 that was awhile, GBP=/rm6.0 from previous rm7, AUD & EURO both have also gone down so a little yippie for us... Still trying to get the courage to just go up to mom & tell her my plans for europe but i cant seem to find when is that moment... sooon sooon... oh btw, i lost my passport & bank book together at once...
I'm trying to get back to writting frequent either through my laptop or iPod.... will find and make time until then...

too doooo loooo.....takecare!

Career day????

Long advise day it was from parents..
It was probably an hour only but felt like 3 long pain staking hrs.. I was for one thing not in the mood to have one of those conversation.. Except I guess conversation means both parties talking, so I didnt respond much as I didnt know hot to say what I had to say..
Let's start with first they're not letting me go spend time & see anamika on the basis
1.. I went in feb- waste money go again ( mind you its my $$ but I had to lie say she was paying coz or else they will say I need to save) true enuff they did mention it, then they said I shud not always make em pay .. ( actual fact they have not really paid & they offer to do so)..
2.. I have not worked hard enuff..
I'm not sure if they can hear themselves when they speak as they saw & knew how early i was out of the hse & how late I came back & how tired I was b4 the competition for easily 2 mths..
Although its much tiring then sitting in an office doing work & getting a fixed amount, I managed to somehow earn the most ive ever did in my sk8in coaching yrs..

So on it was bout what I wanna do & career.. We have had this talk b4.. Nothing came out of it & same now.. I already said I'm not certain.. They did mention that I didnt have to run their business if I didnt want & they will sell it when time comes..
Ive just been really occupied with skating & I focus more on it as that's my passion.. I don't think I wanna b making millions & living a stressful life doing something I don't like. And I never said that I wanna take skating as my career either. To me they both are jobs to support myself I'm not sure if I want & have to make a career out of it...
I'm paying for my car, my shopping my holidays all on my own.. Ive yet to ask them for $$$ so I feel they should not b pressuring me at this point of time when I'm really occupied..( fine coaching doesnt pay as well but even then I have managed to somehow survive on my own & I feel I'm proud of myself ) do note I didnt mention that I'm satisfied as there is always more to achieve I know but things will fall into place.. I'm a very optimistic person & I know if you're happy & surrounded by positive vibes than positive energy & good things happen...
There were more issues raised that we shall talk bout it soon in another post..
After thinking deciding I guess I don't mind doing the AmCash 21 investment seriously & the usual making time to go to the office & learning bout the business& after office back on ice.. Do bare in mind next mth is Ramadan so no lesson b4 6pm doesnt give me much option but will try figure something out..
I hope this all goes well & in oct I fly off to Europe........ Let's see as plans & me so far never go hand-in hand.... ALL THE BEST DEAR !!!!!

Thank u dragam for listening, advising & being there,...

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Student Events

Student Events

A brief summary on my students schedule for the upcoming skate Asia 2008 held at Pyramid ice, Sunway.., do come and support our malaysian team....

Freestyle - Mon, wed, thurs
Footwork- sat, sun
Artistic - sun, Mon, tues,

Sat footwork K.
Sun Footwork 3,4 & artistic 3
Mon freestyle 3 artistic 4
Tues artistic 1 stroking speed
Wed pre alpha, alpha & jump spin / freestyle 4
Thurs Gamma , delta, freestyle 1
Fri spotlight & couple spotlight

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Skate Asia event

Skate Asia event

Below are details of events that I have signed up for.. Out of which only 2 programs done :)

ribbon #93 aug 10 sun 14:40 3competitor
Spotlight #398 aug 14 thurs 21;20 x2
Artistic #431 aug 15 fri 14;17 x3

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internal politics???

Seriosuly i do love skating but it get's pretty frustrating when you work your butt off and people do not appreciate instead they bitch bout how you work..what's the deal with that... and also when students are not putting in their 100% effort.. so why am i pushing them and myself when they do not wanna do well??? i might as well take that time go to office, work or skate for my ownself ...
I'm supposed to be competing in Spotlight Light Entertainment doing "fever" (saw costume over the weekend to rent) but til now NO PROGRAM, Rhythmic ribbon ( competing with Allysha haha and four others- aT Least i accomplished Sarah's program) til now NO PROGRAM, Artistic "arms of an angel" (just finished choreographing on Thursday but no costume) & Couple spotlight with aiza still NO NEWs if we're competing or not and what we are doing.....

Skate asia is just 6 days away but the rink will be closed for lesson and public from the 6th Wed onwards.. so guessing most other coaches are feeling the pressure.. As for me, it's already considered the end, there is nothin much you can really do but just brush up on their elements.. So im not putting any pressure on them as they will just end up being all nervous and wrecked out if they cant do a clean program... I have done my part ...Guess now it's up to them to skate their heart out...

Its good that i actually dont have many students only around 6 and the other few 4 i'm just 'helping' out another coach Shaz... Well I don't quite get her, she enrols her students in soo many events and she has no time for them, and i end up teaching them private lessons, while she does mainly group lesson(less work more money).. Honestly I only wanted to help out these students coz they are the ones competing and i have to be professional and lend out my service since i am generally available... But overall, i have spend a lot of time on her extra students that are only as she puts it "doin 'spotlight' event so its no big deal"... so her sms kinda pissed me off..
To begin with it was the parents that came and approach me, and it was the parents that suggested having as many lessons as possible.. First she wasnt happy that some of them approached me without asking, next she had issues on which program she wanted to do, ( then she had no time..so she left me 2 students to handle), and even til now its the parents who keep insisting for extra lesson as they feel that the children are not doing too good and she does not have time.... This is what happens...
Out of no where today she sms saying that it is her business how many hrs lesson she wants to teach *refering to a comment that i said to 1 of the girls parents as she asked me to reschedule my class coz her daugther has 4 hrs wit shaz which i said no clearly priority is given to My students.. In a way my comment was that "good at least shaz is doing 4 hrs"* ....and than she goes on saying that she is the main coach, she is helpin me by letting her students take lesson with me ( which honestly isnt much of a help... i'd rather take walk in lessons then go thru HER stress..) and that im just in charge of spotlight events so there is no need for me to do so many lesson.....Oh and she had issues with one of my studens parents & asked me to tell her that coaches get main priority to play music not to those practicing - well she should tell that to Jenny's students parents too.. So overall, i guess she just has some 'personal issue' with me..( in reality it is true proven before) so my response to that sms is DELETE message... Waste time only reply to her....

So datz the end of bitching session for this weekend... hope it ends there... besides that everything else is fine... im still happpy =) just rather tired with lack of sleep...teachin as early as 6am and finishin as late as 12:30am
I am now 42 kg and on several medication............. but still alive haha.. so stay tune for more updates...

silent again...

There was the silence again.. Wow I never really realized how busy one
can be til they lack of sleep, get attacked by tonsillitis,(not so
good feeling as your throat gets sore & inflamed, fever, headache) all
at once plus bodyache due to overwork.. Plus side - made the most i
have in my whole 7yrs of teaching & managed to loose 2kg back to the
old 41 kilo when sick.. Mind u my voice is still recovering.. I dont
sound reeally bad like a toad now. School holidays was from 26-8
June... In this 2 weeks worked from basically 6am-rink closed (tues
thurs til midnight) weekends til 2pm.. Spent almost an entire day at
the rink..!! Had to push students for skate Asia test & closing date
14th., besides that prepare kavitha,syaza,Cher minn & ninn for our 3rd
nationals & also I had to try find time for myself which I hardly had
to practice for the competition til the very last day (refer to
national championship blog up soon when time permits) Today 8am for
an hour back coaching then off to office til5 then lesson til rink
close.. I have no more off days everyday coaching for at least 3hrs
non-stop. Even now I write with my iPod during lunch break wit mom dad
& back home prayer time..,
Eyes slowly closing will shut it for 10mins or so if I'm lucky. Can't
believe it only 30 DAYS til I turn a 25!! A quater century old :D

Sent from my iPod

Shoot day..

Ween went yesterday.. hmm kinda un-organized it seems.... i was suppose to go yesterday lucky i called Monday to confirm & they said mine is Wed, ween is tue.. he went there, they took ages to set up & had problems they could not use the location, so he didnt shoot anythin so he was shootin wed mornin & me wed afternoon both meet at hartamas..

Arrived on time & ween just started shooting, he another guy & the girl were the main, so these two guys supposed to b in a bar checkin chic's out then they tell their friend "what he is missing & he should get well soon & join them" that shoot took almost 1 hr plus..

yesterday itself i already felt a lil sore in my throat think it was mama's prawn yummy sambal & screamin/ teaching my kids over the past week =p

the other talent for the clinic scene were there as well at Cavell's a spanish restaurant in Hartamas...2 nurse & me the doc... we helped out with ween's scene, playing flirty girls in the club the guys were tryin to hit & the last final scene was a GIRLS DAY OUT wishing our friend "Happy birthday,get well soon & wish you were here"... in between a million ramblings by each one of us girl, there were 6 of us...
Anyway we didnt manage to shoot the clinic scene as it was almost approachin 6pm, so postpone to next day, however during shoot itself gosh my headache was massive & i could feel my temperature rise & throat sore..didnt help i didnt eat anythin til i got there & ordered brownies with ice cream..

Drove ASAP in peak traffic Hartamas to Puchong - route not to unfamiliar these few mths...with a heavy head..got back fell asleep & stayed in bed for the next 2days, canceled my role as doctor for the next day shoot...

so now will find time to meet them & get my pay for that one day shoot, while ween gets 2 days pay .. it was Fun overall.. =)

Videogram

my bro sunil sent me an email sayin his friend was finding for talent for a videogram..so i sent a pic of myself, sunil with his friend suzanne, me with ween, mama with me, and papa with me... (coz i didnt have solo pics of them only at that moment & all pics were taken from facebook) so the shoot will be this comng tues for me & ween, sunil wont be doing it coz he will be in KK & mama papa cant do it coz they will be in Kubang Pasu for a new project signing ceremony...

A videogram is basically gonna be like a video message & this will be sent out to private hospitals, and friends and family can choose from several templates (Which we are acting out) to send to the patient.. -soounds pretty cool...

basically ween will be in a bar scene wit few others & he will say "Get well soon, wish you were here with us"
as for me i will be the doctor no idea what i do :)

so let's see... * oh we getting paid & it's only 2hr make up 2 hr shoot..datz it..according to the person in charge.. but will b fun ;) i hope...

ALL PINK

yippiiieeeeeeee... finally after waiting for two weeks since the date of purchase i received this nice packaging for ME :D =) yee haaa...
My NEW PINK Dell laptop is here.... i soooooooooooooo soooooooo LOVE it :) now i have my old Nokia L'Amour phone thats pink (dat i hardly use), my cover for my Ipod is Pink hehe the day i received my laptop last week i wore pink top hehe.. Yess im such a girlie girl & i LOVE pastel colors like Pink, Purple, Lilac, Light Blue etc..

The webcam by Creative is soo cool with only 2mp hehe i can change my audio effects (ducky, chipmunk, kid, male to female, old etc..) hehe had fun experimenting wit zoyli :)

Only thing that im not happy & tried to change before i purchased was that the OS is Windows Vista & im not to fond of it as heard lots of complaints bout it, so the lady said i cant change it when i order but after i receive i can downgrade it but its a long process, so hehe wil wait til zoyli my IT & handy man comes to see me again.. til then i will familiarize myself wit it..

Oh it also didnt come wit OFfice it had it came wit Works which im not sure is compatible with other ppls pc so i installed the 2007 office...had to install again my iTunes, skype , msn all done :D

This laptop really suits me, dad suggested i change my laptop so i did hehe i was still aiming and eyeing for the PINK VAIO that has been begging me to purchase it since the last few mths but coz it was all to soon & it was rather pricey so i decided its ok since they love DELL & they give good after sales service i decided DELL shall be it :)

Soo i hereby now officeal write using my new laptop... my next aim is for the Giorgio Armani- Samsung phone ahhhhh hehehe & Wii hehe at least i wont be that bored when im home ;) oh n i need to save for my next trip to europe i plan hopefully it works out in October or so..

*pink panther is outta here*

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Gossip Girl

=) it's finally out here in Malaysia.. though i missed the first episod that aired April 23 this week's episod i only managed to catch the last 15mins of it on 8tv every wed 10pm/ 10.30 pm i cant remember ( i have a goldfish memory mind you).... since im waitin for my new Pink laptop hehe, i decided not to download anythin on to this current laptop after formatting it since i'm selling it.. Therefore i have been searchin on YouTube parts of episod 1 & 2 on my iPod.. ooh cant wait for my new laptop to download the whole season...( malaysia is like 14 episods behind & in the US currently it's at episod 15)

What is GG bout..
It's by the guy who gave you the well known Tv Series "The O.C." so expect something similar to it...
Revolves around the lifes of the Upper East Side, NY socialite kids that go to an elite school. It is narrated by a girl who runs a blog onher fellow UES(Gossip Girl) who is not revealed..the series begins by introducing Serena van der Woodsen and best friend Blair Waldorf, as well as Blair's boyfriend Nate Archibald and Nate's best friend Chuck Bass. Other characters in the show include Dan and Jenny Humphrey , who become involved in the lives of the main characters despite being less inclined to merge with the upper-east-side crowd. Like The O.C. the adult's too have their own twist of plot goin on..

Music
Has the same concept with several popular tv series, as Alexandra Patsavas is the music supervisor( Trucallin, The O.C. , Grey's Anatomy, Supernatural). Expect indie bands mixed with pop songs..

Blog
http://www.cwtv.com/thecw/gossip-girl-blog

~back to work enough of gossip girl ms poshice is out~

precious bags

well, just the other day i have realized how precious my bag(s) is (are)... hmm i LOVEEEE my HANDBAG's a LOT... hehe i make sure i takecare of them very well, shower them with Love, and protect them from harm...

I do not..yes I DO NOT like leaving my handbags on the floor coz i feel the floors are dirty with germs =p so they sit with me (though i wish some places started havin beg holders like in some other countries or even cute lil chairs/ basket for them to be safe in) i do not like it when someone touches them to feel the texture or look at it.. SEE NO TOUCH.. i wont say TOUCH NO SEE coz then all their fingerprints will be on my bag :) in an event of evacuation on a plane i will have to go against the rule of taking any personal beloging... i will ONLY take my HANDBAG hehe which inside consist of everythin of importance to me ;)
The other day after lunch or tea, walking from the restaurant to the car in the rain, two people had to share an umbrella i actually made my friend rescue my bag & put it in the bigger shoppin bag & warned that the bag under NO CIRCUMSTANCE should get wet.. attempting not to get wet in the rain under 1 small umbrella for two wasnt smart but at least my Bag was safe =) and it didnt get wet... ahh my precious.. of coz to make it even precious is my xmas Ferragamo gift bag that j'dore *blink blink blink* ...... ahhhhh...i lovee... hehe...
Yessss.. i'm crazy over bags, shoes like most other women but that doesnt mean i have the same taste as them coz im Me & i like being different & unique so it sets me apart from the norm...(boring)
May i remind you, DO NOT touch my bag without my permission, try & borrow...i really take my bags seriously & will not want any harm to fall upon it... now while i surf to see what bag shall be on my shoulders /arms next...
~buenos noches~

censorship board

it's pretty annoying going into a cinema paying rm10 & then watching a movie that has ALREADY BEEN CLASSIFIED as 18 & above to see parts of the movie chopped off, some words attempted to be *bleep* hehe & at times the editing is done badly that in the end it wasn't *bleep* in time..& words like *dickhead* dont get *bleep* in the aim of protecting us from being corrupted exposed to too much social illness..

i mean seriously, if they are tryin not to corrupt the minds of the young ones, music tv, entertainment channels & celebrities, internet have already gone by them & corrupted these kids.. why classify a certain movie & then censor it at the same time... PEOPLE DECIDE EITHER... obviously consumers will wanna buy pirated DVD. movies in malaysia arent that expensive to watch & u get better sound system & the whole "movie" environment is much fun to some... but after paying that amount of money to watch a movie & see bits & pieces of it chopped of, might as well go for the pirated movies... they are cheaper, u can wear ur sarong & singlet, pause in btwn the movie for "pee" break, the sound effect may not be there 100% unless u invest in good sound system, at least you wont have the interruption part of *bleep* or scenes being removed...

i love going to the cinema & watchin movies especially on wed hehe coz yes movie's are chepaer datz y it's MOVIE DAY, but thats just to watch general shows that i feel would not have much censorship in it.. however to my dismay MOST movies WILL have some sort of censorship unless ur watchin a cartoon/animated movie.. grrr...
things that will be censored while watching

• foul languages
• extreme gore scene
• kissing (yesss)
• what more sexual intercourse (or attempt)
• religious (the whole movie will just not b shown)

i seriously feel that the people on the censorship board enjoy watching all the movies & piss us consumers to watch edited movie thats should have been 90mins to 70mins.. but they are able to cover it up with the 20mins ad ;)

hmm i'm not sure if this is the right country that say's they practice freedom of speech.. do they?

p.s. :latest news i heard they wanna censor internet .... WTH !!!!!!!!!

* haha instead of focusing on the young ones & trying to save them from the "Evil" out there, try looking at the older generation that have lots of other problems i.e. corruption, they themselves makin sexual tapes & been caught for molesting & stuff... *pbft* news like this does come out on media right.. why do this unmoral people do so???

• because of MTV?? (yea rite)
• because they heard the word F!#$ in some movie..
• because they were tryin to figure out what was happening under the sheet when the scene was skipped to the following scene??
• because of PAris hilton(haha she basically became famous from her tape more then being the heiress of Hilton)

sheesh.. help this corrupted people/ organization/ department ( espc police =p before worryin to much of censoring f#$! i dont spell it coz im against foul language as i dont see the need for it as the english language has a vast range of vocabulary to use then one word that everyone uses in one sentence that has LOTS of menaing ;) ... kid's now days already know the word even without going to the movies, they see their parents kissing even before the movies, soo do us ALL A FAVOR .. adapt the CLASSIFICATION BY ALL MEANS , however get rid of the *BLEEEP* after classifying!! if NOT, DONT CLASSIFY AT ALL so we can go to our nearest DVD seller =)

Virus attack!!

Few weeks back did some accounts work for mom in the office & she gave me her thumbdrive (that was infected by a virus that she picked up from Sports Commisoner's office) & that was passed on to me... gRrrrrrrr.. with the help from zoyli i tried deleting it, but it popped back up (stubborn virus) it says on my IE * FAIRUZZ DTG MENYERANG* (haha which literally means Fairuz has come to come attack) i checked in every system32 folder for that idiot but he wasnt there.. i formatted my PC & just to realize it was in D: as well, so i had to format D: (inside there was like 32GB of files that i managed to only save 8GB in two DVD) now need to download back all music..
Now im back to virus FREE laptop, and hehe dad just said i could get a new laptop , so since i cant wait for the VAIO CR , decided to settle for the DELL 1420 Inspiron- & yes FLamingo Pink was the color, as the Purple Satin was under the other model...besides the co. is paying for it & they use my current laptop while i get the new one hehe...cnt wait til it arrives next mon, only setback is it has Vista & several ppl i know have lotsa complaints bout it...
Anyway this virus has done me good in the sense i now know how to format my laptop by MYSELF, figure out how to detect a virus..familiar with Everest, Kaspersky, CC cleaner hehe, total commander ..not bad.. thanks to Guru Zoyli hehe..
Now please virus dont attack me anymore!!

1/4 of 2008

blink blink blink.. and it's already mid APRIL 2008!!!!!! i seriously can't believe it.. well basically it's been a busy 1/4 of the year of me travelling here & there.. so now til the last quater guess i will get my act together & get down to business... also will update my blog as often as possible ;) in mind was also thinkin of doin a travel journal/blog of places i've been since i have a goldfish memory better to type it down & post pics as well, but it will be a seperate blog from here (thinking how to go bout that as well)
On a personal note a lot has happened, people have come & gone just in these few months... i watched this movie called "Enchanted" & laughed away as hmm i could see myself there...* i've been waiting for my true love's kiss* ( hehe and i found it...shhh) Visited beautiful historic places in Asia, had a nice catching up session done in Australia with old friends (anamika miss u to bits thanks for all the dinner u cook, takin care of me, chillin together til 3am chit chatting) & the recent memorable trip Krabi, Thailand.. (that almost didnt happen & im sooo glad i made it..those were really Memories Made to Last)
Zoyli also was here in KL spent as much quality time together =) & now that he is back home.. hmm im not sure why but it feels kinda quiete n i guess sorta like something is missing & different..ANYWAY hehe...im sooooo excited that he wil be back in 3mths for my 1/4 century birthday..SWEEEEEEEET..
ok this was supposed to be a summary post so no details shall be revealed ;)

Upcoming ice skating competition
april 24 Skate Jakarta
June 13 & 14 Malaysia's 3rd National Figure Skating Championship
August 9-17 Skate Asia, Pyramid Ice - Malaysia

Travel plans
I wanna visit Europe in October
Sri Lanka maybe December

ok income is still pending and sorting things out =) stay tune for more details..................

hushhh

she opted for a quiete weekend at home.. doing nothing much but reminiscing the whole evening... how things can change sometimes not only literally but in that instance change in a blink of an eye... life is too great to be taken granted off as we should make the best of "our once in a lifetime experience" of living... when was the last time you sat down and really heard the birds sing, the hustle of the wind and nature calling out to you...
the simple things in life and the smallest things are normally forgotten which amazes me why is it so hard for some people to say these two words that has a really strong definition ..."sorry" and "thank you"...
there are lot of uncertain questions left out there that i'm not sure if it requires an answer that i am seeking to know, but do i reallly need to know????

malice..

how could someone just have the guts and decide to abandon them out of nowhere... is that really a way to show your dissatisfaction towards someone?? it's rather ironic how from being persistent to meet transformed to an ignore & leave them just like that hanging on a whole different level at the same time....if i were to write this post yesterday i think i would have cursed and sweared a lot at what had happened so its best to just try & keep it short & simple now, as it's no point wasting not only time & effort but also thought for such matter... everythin happens for a reason i reminded myself & that really made me open my eyes and see things clearly and reassured me that my decision made earlier was the right thing to do... there is nothing left to talk and say.....thats when i discovered friends that would really go the extra mile if they could and appreciate and feel very lucky having them in my life...although we may not see things the same but their act of kindness helped me opened my heart and i thank you..
feeling alone, lost, stranded and stuck not really knowing whats the next best move and having to make decision was tough and furthermore when it has to be decided within minutes... i'm just thankful that i am still able to write this down regardless what an irresposible soul did...

KL awaiting...

this few weeks hmm has been seriosuly quiete........ all i've been doing is stay on the ice teach, practice work on my program and stay home online, try figure out flight and hotel details for my upcoming trips...i'm pretty excited with the coming months but it's really amazin how its already mid jan...emotionally things have been pretty hanging on the edge...but in time everything sould unfold and it would be a perfect ending or so i hope.. just dont want it to be another story with a twist...and my fairytale will have a happy ending.... pleaseeeeeeeee.................while im on a quest myself i realized this based on a movie i just finished watchin (New York Waiting)

mayb im always to quick to go the easy way and always let someone choose to love me rather than making that choice by myself..but i dont know if they really loved me or i loved them... the desire was always there but it shud b more than that.. let's let things happen for itself and not rush into things i hope you understand and know how i feel :) at times its seems surreal and is just impeccable...let this be the last.............................................

LAtest....favs...

Movies-


Rendition: (watched) movie with a slight twist in it so pay attention to every detail of the movie bout an american born egyptian guy who is accused of a terror bomb attack in south africa...

I am Legend: (watched) similar to the movie 28 days or something like that, whereby a virus attacks and is airborne and everyone gets infected except the carrier or those immune to it and that has a cure for it.. only thing is Will smith is in it so hehe worth watchin him;)

The Golden Compass: (watched) goes along the likes of Chronicles of Narnia.. its kinda cool whereby humans have a daemon, a physical representation of their soul in animal form.. i love the girl's name Lyra Belacqua and the Poar bear Iorek Byrinson.. i'm not gonna say much bout it but watch it, though the ending was a bit abrupt so guessing there is a sequel to it.. ( i think based on the book there is 3 part to the story...)

Stardust: (really wanna watch) hmm one of those book movies ( lord f the ring, narnia... ) i think its called sci-fi or fiction anyway everyone that watched it said it was awesome!!!! bout how a guy ventures out to find a star to win his love...

Alvin & the Chipmunks: ( i wanna watch)

Game Plan: (looks nice, out hope to watch)

Music-

Renee Olstead

Alicia Key

Jordin Spark

Soderqvist in town

Vc, Staffan & the triplets were down for a short new year break.. they spent 2 days in kl 6 days in penang (to see the condo they wanted to buy & celebrate NY eve) & back to kl for 2 days before heading back to singapore via malacca.. it was really great having the almost the whole family together at the same time.. took the boys alex & mathias out wit mita, ween & sunil.. they visited Laundry, Scarlet, Hartamas Square & Breakers... they sure did have a great time & it was fun hanging out with the cousins chilling together... we managed to spend as much quality family time as possible so we had dinner's almost every other day... it was really fun getting and tryin to get everyone for dinner.. fortunately we made it the last night before they left however cha-cha and aunt pushpa could not make it for the dinner & family picture... below are some of the memories captured... after they have returned back to singapore today..

The Laundry & Scarlet (Victor, mita, Murali, dahnia, harish, alex, mathias,ayu) before New Year

Cousins last night out @ Hartamas Square/ Breakers..(Ayu,ween,sunil,mita,alex,mathias) after New Year..

Feliz Ano nuevo...

Hola... HAPPY NEW YEAR!!! ahhhh i can't believe it 2008 has already arrived wth i still feel like its january 2007.. & next mth i would be going to Korea IF it was 2007.. haha but it's 2008 a whole NEW YEAR with a WHOLE NEW EXCITEMENT/ADVENTURE/ EXPERIENCE to come.. days has passed no actually they fly as fast as a turbo jet, it seriously feels FAST... sigh next thing i know i will be 35 hahaha im not sure how many years that is from now but i guess it would be sooon but who cares i stop counting my age haha every year is the same only 1number added to the candles on my birthday cake;)

Ushered the new years in with a litte difference just for a short brief moment (according to noreen its gonna be a different experience) went with her, eskey & his friends to KL tower had dinner @ Barra Restaurant the theme was "Casino Inferno".. the meal was scrumptious (compensates how much i paid for it) the rest of the night was OK.. hehe but it got exciting as we cheers the new years Video called my parents (home) & then zoli video called me...it was simple nice..then headed to Heritage- Loft crazee packed stayed half hour then ciao home sweeet home :)

my new year AX satin bubble dress :) black was mine

on the way to get stuck in traffic

NOO Traffic so we had to wait while the restaurant was set up New Year @ KL TOWER :) * wish you were here

bored while waitin countdown is it time yet... HAPPY NEW YEAR!!
Oh hehe before i could receive the money from dragam, stupid lady in KLCC Ferragamo told me SALE ends 31st so i rushed in the afternoon to the Gardens & bought my Amanda Patent bag... J'dore.. LOVEEEE it......

hello i am amanda by Ferragamo

i'm on the left & on the right is my sis agatha ah man they both are nice which do i pick agatha black or white

this is amanda black this is agatha white

CONCLUSION IS... haha take both..no kiddin i took AMANDA BLACK Koszonom szivem...szeretlek mi bag

Welcome Amanda to the many collection and colors of my bag..along with the Longchamp brown travel bag, ETRO lovely paisley, MAdison GUEss.. haha & it goes on n on.. but this is my numero UNO... bag of the year :) greaaaaat way to begin and usher the YEar :)

MAy you be blessed with good health , greats wealth and lots of Lurvvv