Hmm or so i think.. =) i still do feel that the L word has been a pretty commercialized word and movies have potrayed a happily ever after.. well let's see if this princess gets her happy ending.. (prince charming waht say you...) anyway feelings have been let out to the mother ( hehe it had to be done thru gmail chat haha as i've been teaching till late at night and didnt want to wait long.. and yes for some reason the eyes did start to water) so mama knows how i feel for him, how we are serious & how i'm planning to celebr8 xmas, new year & his birthday with him.. now issues start to rise as she feels its not right for me to go on my own & stay with him & his FAMILY & be with him alone.... (mind you i'm 25 & she says that can happen once im married...) she said she has thought of going sometime next year as well with papa to go visit his family...( exciting but let's see knowing them.. unpredictable) i dont see & i pointed this out as well to her how me going to find happiness is wrong and spoiling reputation of the family... ( eh... and of coz if the boys went away to see their other half it would not have been an issue coz they are BOYS...) hmm ...
Anyhow... they both like him, but they just want to make sure that i feel special for him for the right reason's...i feel i'm slowly having faith in him & he won't disappoint me... so it's time to slowly find my way back into ....... love ....... i guess coz i want it to work and i'm afraid to take any risk of loosing it and making sure things work out perfect for both... they're also concern of the lifestyle i lead- pretty much surrounded by luxury and if i will be able to get the same spoiltness i have now... which will be hard for me to let go as this is me & it makes me happy as well as i feel i deserve the finest and best things in life.. thats why i have a wonderful family that i wont trade anything for... but i'm sure things will be wonderfull and i will get my happily ever after which just doesnt end that way in fairytales...
* i am soo tempted to just click my details in and submit my plane ticket................. for Dec...
- btw we going to watch Mamma Mia yippie yeaa finally i managed to buy the tickets last night after a long wait in the line and all the confusion so 28th Dec i shall be singing away in Istana Budaya...
~YOu are the DAncing Queen.. young and sweet only 17 .... Dancing Queen feel the beat from the tamborine oh yeaaa....~ haha as i write this blog , the song is being played on my playlist too as we watched the movie over the weekend with mama papa hahah had a fun time & i bought the soundtrack.. i'm in the ABBA Fever.... even my sms ringtone hahahhahaha... till then cheerios..
lets see my updates on my trip =(
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