hurt......

i got back from Pyramid had class,went gym, had off ice dance practice for show then arrived back was in my room & mom came to me very subtly telling me that AXEL DIED!!!!!!!!!! ouch... all i can do is let my tears flow..i know that won't bring him back, but at least it will help ease a little inside of me,since i don't talk much bout my personal issues as i dont feel like trobuling ppl to lend me their ears, however i am all ears if people have problems & i'm better at solving their issues than mine :) ironic but true... i told my mom i could not bury it as it was just to painful so she had to do it :(

ahhh what a weeeeek!! there has been good n bad guess its life's balance..as much as im overjoyed of happiness most of the time,i guess sadness to has to come to make me realize this is LIFe not a fairytale...where all good things do come to an end at point...like lovers to friends, hello-goodbye,a newborn-death...it's all god's test i feel in a way to see how strong we are to accept His challenge... for me,someone who has learnt to be strong hehe i have learned to stay up & on my feet with what has been going on in my life only by looking at the bright side of things in every situation that comes that becomes a problem...

now i hope & know my dear AXEL will be having fun making babies in heaven,as he was sexually deprived in a way =p hehe & he will have the best food to eat with the best place to be at...HEAVEN...[i wanna go there too....haha well not so soon,when the time comes & when i'm missing on earth find me in heaven as that's where i should be i HOPE]

updates on my missing ring that mama & papa gave to me for my 16th bday is yet to be found from Habib... nice heart in the centre with a diamond in it....it was at the side pocket of my handbag where i kept my phone,it was there with my other bling bling ring i took it out before the interview so i didnt look to flashy while goin for audition on wed for breakfast show & could not find it since thurs :( well wil still loook & be upset & sulk & hopr it comes back... i dont look nice when im not happy & it makes u old,haha with being hurt i still care bout my future outlook and my emotional condition...so i shall try not to think to much and enjoy the rest of the not so nice weekend...............

have a NICE weekend =) *whats nice bout this week, Chelsea lost Mourn-inho (haha i know spelling mistake) i had a auditon with NTV7 received my pay check from the rink (haha & i have to withdraw all of it to pay for my car next week$$$) i'm not really fasting (which kind sux too coz everyone else is)i got to see Swan LAke & am still excited bout it...i have a whole lota future ahead of me that has to b greeted with POSITIVITY...so here it comes........................(negative vibs plz get lost thank you :) haha )